heart wrenching-ness

akhirnyaaaaaa. ok no drama please.ngehh

result dah pun keluar. and everyone was like "alhamdulillah, praise to Allah" and "As expected" and "Yes, lulus, alhamdulillah" and oh-you-know-what. So my news feed was definitely eaten up by these happy people claiming how they feel about their results. Well, i did too. theheheh, but then got it removed. Why? Hmm, no particular reason. Alhamduliilah jugak, sebab result was not as expected. Eh? Not as expected? haihh. aku expect teruk gila since my carry mark was like taknak cakap and i answered my papers pun was like taknak cakap jugak.
But yet, peningkatan. and i was like "eh? err, Alhamdulillah! " and lompat2 dalam keadaan tak mandi tak gosok gigi messy hair and bangun tepat2 kul 9 pagi atas katil :D

Thank you Allah, and everyone that matters ;)


Dalam babak yang lain pula, Ina has been calling me a lot since she caught her bf, i mean ex-bf cheated on her and their fucking 7 years relationship just shattered. SHATTERED. 7 YEARS. 7 FUCKING FUCKING YEARS.

I didn't know much how to calm a broken hearted person but yet i did my best. Somehow, i feel her pain. Sumpah tak tipu. Everything was just not worth it. Screw you dude for breaking my sister's heart.
btw, I got this from a friend's page, and thought of sharing this.


the girl who seemed unbreakable - BROKE

the girl who seemed so strong - CRUMBLED

the girl who always laughed it off - CRIED

why?

it was all because the boy who make her feel WORTH it, left her all ALONE..

i may not be the best sister neither i know how to mend your broken heart, but 1 fact you should always remember, sis, YOU GOT ME, :')

december

the thing about insomnia is you are always hungry. ALWAYS. adoii. laparrrr =.=

it's december already. days away from 2011. ;) time to do the most cliche thing ever when it's december. teka lah, teka lah. haha. okay.
PILING UP ON THE SO-CALLED-RESOLUTIONS!
okay, some of you people bukan hanya pile-up kan the resolutions, tapi buat juga. but me? naah! mmg pile up kan pun tapi buatnya 1 ke 2 jer. kot. ahahah. yg paling takleh bla, every year mesti ada "kuruskan badan" but yet, haremmmmm. hmm

2 days away from the kepulangan of the mother and father. tangki civic pun dah diisi penuh for KLIA. can't wait :D sebab penderitaan aku akan berakhir. penat ohh jadi mother. i swear. pagi2 keje aku google masakan kat myresipi.com. and tanya kids nak makan apeeeeeeee. hari2 insomnia, tido pas subuh, bangun time orang semua dah nak tido balik. jadinya, no breakfast for them, bangun2 jer masak lunch. haha. i am such a bad mother kan? SORRY.
hmm, agak2 mak ayah kasi tak aku nak pegi menggedik menggeletis bervacation bersama rakan taulan after diorang balik nih? dah banyak dah plan aku. dahlah nak mintak duit ribuan ringgit diorang lagi for DSLR. adoiiii '-.-

ohh pretty please. yg DSLR tuh salahkan lecturer, okay? err, i love you makayah ;DD

the thing is, i miss pizza and the crews and the bucks i get from drops of sweat working there. aihh. aku sumpah nak balik kerja balik, like seriously, nak2 lagi mmg tahap kering macam sekarang ni yg keje aku tukar henpon, and online shopping tak sudah2 dengan duit yg ada. tapi tak sampai sebulan je lagi nak naik sem dah. macam harapan negara jer nak keje balik though mahendran selvarajah told me they are hiring new stuffs.

result pun nak keluar dah. erm, sumpah takut. i didnt study a lot last sem. pretty much think that i'll screw things up. tapi hope2 okaylah. asal pointer tak drop teruk. *shivering*

good day everyone ;)

hola everyone!

semester break is here again. alhamdulillah, dah 2 sem kat lendu. things were great, and more of my great moments are yet to come. okay, so mum and dad pergi haji and im a single mother kat rumah. wait. i've mentioned that already right? -___-

sumpah penat macam haper jer okay? especially when the adik2 tak bagi kerjasama. felt like screaming-ing-ing. gaaahh! but i'll never ever tell my mum how hard it is to actually become a mum or precisely, her. she'll definitely go "haaa, tu lah kome. baru tau macam mana penatnya layan rumah ni. kojenye tak habis2"
err. i feel you, woman.

cuti ni sumpah bosan. nak keluar jalan2 takde duit, nak keje tak boleh sebab these kids.
haiihh.

till then. ;)

study week

hye blog :)

the last update wassss, err, raya? ok, berhabuk. puhhh, puhhh!
okay. so, what did i do after raya? getting back to campus of course, oh oh and i had my hair cut! ok, a real cut. like this time it is short. thehehehe. i LOVEEEEE IT~ others too. :)

so assignment menggunung, tak tido macam gila babi buat assignment yg super banyak yang kene submit hari selasa bape hari bulan tah haritu yg esok pagi selasa tu kelas macam packed gila yg panda eyes and all sorts of eyebags memang tersembul keluar which was not a very nice view, people. itu assignments punya cerita lahh. so assignments dah settle and now it's time to make out with those books. yeah, aku tak beli buku pun this sem except for bel yg aku dapat for only RM10. I HEART YOU REZA :)

bagaimanakah mahu study jika tiada buku wahai zuraini? aha. itu saya masih tak tahu lagi okay?

it's study week. a week where you are supposed to hit the sack, i meannnnn, BOOKS. -____- dah nama pun study week dah tentu2 lah aku balik. rumah pun 34 jengkal jer kan? muehehehe :DD pulak gap tak macam lama pulak kan, haruslah duk umah.

mak and ayah nak pergi haji dah this 28th. okay, they were excited packing and stuffs but i was having all these butterflies in my stomach. ishh. like i ate a big bowl of butterflies *burrrpp*
can't tell why. oh yeah! i know. probably because i will be a single mother. gah! :D

kene basuh baju, masak, hantar yot pegi skolah, kemas rumah, bayar bil, basuh kereta...okay. fine. sikit jer tuhh :s

oh yeah. esok ada kenduri. hmm, everyone's going to be here. haaa, mmg tak study lah aku jawabnye
oh buku CTU, come to mama! :)

eid

salam ;)

didn't get internet connections in kampung. not even opera mini because the installation failed. celcom, u suck big time. BIG TIME.

so, raya. aidilfitri. lebaran. or whatever you peeps call it. was..... erm... not fun. haish.
first of all, it was a bit suram. everyone was there, but taktau. felt like something was missing somewhere. we didn't go to much houses like we used to. it's Perak's turn this time but taktau. not that fun when it was supposed to be fun lah kan? seperti selalu. sucks even more when i didn't have any picture taken. like, not even one. not even ONE. :(

HAAA, HERE COMES THE WORST PART OF THE RAYA.

the duit raya. angpau meh. seriouslyyyyyyy, sikit giler. like sikit nak mampus. haih. mmg tak merasa lah aku sneakers baru pas raya ni.sneakers yang tak bape sen sangat tuuuuhhhh. apa cer? sebab most of the people yang used to bagi dwet raya was like, NO DUIT RAYA FOR YOU PEEPS ABOVE 18, BERKUATKUASA TAHUN INI. aigoo :(
citt. im like what, 15 still? ;)
mmg pasrah jelah kan. dahlah balik muar pun langsung tak dapat. LANGSUNG. haish. mmg takde mood lah nak balik melaka camni *tetiba* haha

raya 5, dah sampai rumah. lagiiiiiiiilah bosan. but the assignment mood sangat banyaaaaaaak :)
selamat hari raya lah!

raya oh raya!

packing took about 3 days because i dont know what baju to bring and what baju not to bring
baju aku tak macam banyak pulak kan? hoho.
we'll be in perak for the moment where everyone will be bermaaf-maafan di pagi raya this year, and raya 3rd, off to muar ;)
honestly the raya mood aint there, here or everywhere else. idk. assignment yang banyak maybe? -____-

oh oh. done skyping for an hour with orang canada yang will be celebrating the last raya there. ;pp
nyeheheh. we miss you, tipu if we say we don't. have an awesome raya there ayy?

raya this year, takde kasut. huahua. no, it's not like takde kasut langsung2. just that kasut tuh dah pakai and dah pijak all sorts of thing, takde bau kedai punya kasut.
plus it does not match my baju. hah! tapi takpeeeeeeee lah. ;)))

SALAM AIDILFITRI EVERYONE. HOPE YOU PEEPS HAVE A GREAT RAYA THIS YEAR, AND A GREAT RAMADAHAN, LIKE I DID :')